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mommymeIt was a little sad ending our special week together. Having tea was a very nice way to close the week though. We had a lovely, sugary-sweet meal of tea sandwiches, savories, and desserts while sipping tea or milk out of decorative, floral tea cups. Miranda really enjoyed sitting in a ultra girly room full of pink roses. I, on the other hand, was ready to jump out of my skin. Pink overload!!!!

While we waited for our elaborate plates of special treats to arrive, Miranda and I were having a little “end of the week” chat and discussing the week’s events. She was telling me how much fun it was to do things together and how she wished I didn’t have to work so we could always do things together. I was trying to hold in the tears that wanted to spill out, but I had to keep it together to say a few words. I explained to her that when the baby comes, it will be difficult for me to give her my full attention because the baby will need me a lot. I tried to assure her that I will do my best to spend time with her as much as possible. She was nodding her head, slurping her tea out of a spoon, and her eyes were glued to the kitchen waiting for the goodies to come out. Great! So much for our little heart-to-heart mother-daughter session. 🙂

I think spending this week together was very helpful for both of us. For Miranda, she is back on track. She is doing things on her own, listening and following directions, and the whining has stopped. My “old” Miranda is back! As for me, I learned that I can break away from work/my computer to spend time and delight in my daughter’s presence. The work will always be there but my precious time with my child can easily slip away if I don’t cherish it now. This week has been a good reminder of where my priorities lie. Family first!

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wicked

We had a wickedly great time at the theater!

Just wanted to update my loyal blog readers because I know you all miss me. 😉

Miranda and I are having a wonderful week spending quality time together. Each day, my little girl has woken up with a smile because she knew something special was in store for her. Yesterday was a BART ride into San Francisco to see “Wicked.” She had a fabulous time, and so did I. She wore her Dorothy costume from Halloween, and I’d have to say that she practically stole the limelight. As we walked around during intermission, everyone “ooh-ed” and “ahh-ed” when they saw her. “Oh, she’s so adorable!” “Look at her ruby red shoes!” “Where’s Toto?” People were even asking to take her picture. It was like paparazzi! She barely batted an eye as she looked up at whomever was complimenting her, and she would give them her biggest smile. I don’t think I could get used to so much attention.

Tomorrow is another day of fun for us. By the time the weekend comes, I will be broke! (If only I could have an income but never have to work, we would both be happy.)

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mandmomI’m at 35 weeks and may have less than a month before my little munchkin arrives. It has been an easy pregnancy for me, despite the gestational diabetes, but it has been very difficult for my daughter. She has started seeing the difference since two months ago. I can’t do the things that I used to do with her. I can’t carry her, help her tie her shoes, or ride our bicycles to the park. Her Daddy has to do all of that. She has also noticed that I don’t have a lot of patience these days. When she has spilled yet another glass of water or has dropped her snack all over the floor, I have to take a deep breath and ask her to go somewhere else before I lose it. She cries because I’ve hurt her feelings, and I cry because I feel guilty for hurting her. (I’m crying just writing this!) It just isn’t right, and I want to make it up to her.

This week is, what our household calls, “Mommy and Miranda Week!” It’s a 5-day event where my little girl and I will do something fun each day – just the two of us! (Daddy’s jealous.) I have been planning and researching our daily excursions for weeks now and it’s finally here! Obviously, this post has been written prior to this week because Momma ain’t working this week so I can devote my time with my precious first born. (I might sneak a post every now and then, if you’re lucky. ;-))

Here’s a list of some of the things that we’ll be doing:

  • Miranda loves the “Wizard of Oz” so I’m taking her to San Francisco to see “Wicked.” We’re even going to ride the BART train. That’s an excursion in itself.
  • She enjoys learning about how things are made, so I’ve planned a trip to the “Jelly Belly” factory.
  • We’ve had a couple of tea parties with her friends before, but she’s never been to a real tea house. For lunch one day, I have made reservations at a local tea house where we will be served sandwiches, crumpets, scones, and, of course, tea! We’re even going to get dressed up for this occasion.
  • She has always been fascinated with outer space, planets, stars and rocket ships. She and her Daddy could look at the night sky for hours! So I have arranged to visit the Chabot Space and Science Center and see a show in the planetarium.

Hopefully, spending an entire week together and giving her my undivided attention will help her feel more secure, as well as reassure her of  how important she in our lives. Our family may be growing, but our love for her will never change because a new baby will be entering our world.

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Miranda and me flying a kite

One of our "Mommy & Daughter" days: Flying a kite

One of our readers, Emmy, commented in a previous entry, “….as much as I was excited with my new addition to the family, I was overcome with a touch of sadness that my uninterrupted one-on-one time with my first-born daughter would come to an end.” I’ve heard similar stories from my mommy friends about how the closer they got to the end of their second pregnancy, the more guilt they felt. The thought of having to split their time with another child, or worse yet, spending almost all of their time with a newborn, has taken a toll on their emotions. I remember one of my friends, Kim, bursting into tears as she was telling me this. Back then, I thought she was just hormonal and overreacting. Now, I know EXACTLY how she felt! (more…)

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